Beyond the Warrior Within

Life is much like this desert I find myself in now. Barren, desolate, and void of most anything one would find enjoyment out of. A journey one sets out on, the destination being unknown. Stumbling with little guidance and using any wits we are given to follow some sort of path or direction. Then, suddenly after all hope is lost we find an oasis. An absolute paradise in the middle of this treacherous road we have been on for so long. We are filled with utter joy. Finally, is the thought that comes to mind. Finally we have found what we have been looking for for all this time. The work and effort and journey have all been worth this second and moment in time. We enjoy the time we are blessed with in that oasis until something happens. Depending on what type of person we are either, A) The oasis turns out to be a mirage and everything just disappears and once again you are left with the barren unforgiving desert you were stuck with before, or B) We use the oasis until we have had our fill and then we get bored and decide to continue on the road traveling to the next best thing.
The first week in country has passed with a swiftness that I did not expect. People, despite how predictable they are still amaze me constantly. The human mind continues to perplex me. Perhaps, it is the need we have for others or the desire for acceptance we all search for that causes us to do the most unlikely of things. Regardless, I am at a loss for explanation. I’m not saying I’m any better or different. I sympathize, I sympathize completely. I just haven’t found the comfort others have with living all for myself. Even reading my last post I think that way of thinking is horrible. Who am I to complain because I am beaten and used and lied to and completely disrespected. I have the love of a Savior who died for me, and His suffering was immensely worse than mine could ever begin to be. So, once again I will continue to do anything I can to help everyone I can. Much like the service I am doing for this country now, as I sit in a room no bigger than a storage unit. Coming across some of my old writings I see the man I have become and the hatred this world has caused my heart to feel. Though, I refuse to be weak and refuse to give up. I can’t. I won’t. I am the strongest and smartest man who has ever lived. I’m done clapping. I can do it better myself and I will.
With that all said, I’m continuing to enjoy my deployment. I’m gaining weight and looking better everyday. Hopefully, I’m here for sixteen months so that I can purchase a house when I return home. This is my desire, my will, my goal. Self improvement. Better, stronger, faster. Though, I will say a special thanks to those who walk all over me. You are the reason I will be so successful.

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‘Motherfuckin’ Chode’ – Big T

You forget I got this far without you. You are forgetting my broken bones.