Beyond the Warrior Within

28 JAN 2009

It’s funny life never really turns out how you would expect. One minute you have every second figured out, the next you have nothing that you started with and you are fighting with everything to get back to a stable point. I’ve always been a very independent individual. My relationship with my parents never really existed, and still doesn’t really to this day. Bless them for trying, quite honestly I’m indifferent about seeing them. The failing relationships I had with my parents made it very easy for me to be without emotional needs early on. I’ve carried that ability well into my life as it currently sits. I’ve learned here I prefer my solitude. I never realized how much I like this place until the rumors of sending people home early began. My heart actually sunk thinking that I could be selected. I have no problems here, and do to my above stated lack of emotional attachment, I’m completely content staying here sixteen months. Only because I know I could buy a house when I get back to the states, and owning my own house is a long thought out dream of mine.

Here is how I see life. I’m twenty years old, I haven’t even hit middle aged yet. To think that I’ve encountered the love of my life is absurd. I don’t even know what I’m going to do when I get out of the Marine Corps. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’ve been in love and I’ve been willing to see how far it would take me. Though, I have not yet met a woman who can handle me and the things I want to do. I still wanna backpack Europe, skydive, live in Alaska for a couple months, climb a mountain, go crab fishing, stand on a cliff in New Zealand, sing on a stage, write a book, inspire someone, learn to play the guitar, sit on a beach in Mexico with a cold beer in my hand, visit Canada, and rock climb in some random country in Africa. I want to experience every inch of living beautiful terrain this world can offer. Now, to find a woman with the same desires would be great, but if not. I plan on coming right back to the town that I know so well and possibly finding someone there to settle down with. I have a burning desire, a deep raging passion to create something beautiful. I love writing. Sometimes I understand myself better. That is enough for tonight. I’ll say one more thing.

I can’t wait to be a Dad. I’m going to be the absolute best.

Point.

“I cannot believe you didn’t fuck her! Are you kidding me? I’m so pissed off at you right now. Gah!” – John E Schlotter II

Tried to be appealing and you lost your appeal.